Man. Between doped-up NASCAR drivers, the New York Times and certain platinum blond bloggers, Adderall is getting a crazy bum rap these days. The latest anti-Adderall opus I’ve seen comes from an anonymous “Hollywood actress” writing on XOJane that elevates the ‘my-experience-is-self-evidently-universal’ genre to a whole new level. It needs to stop.
Sure, acknowledging that some people take Adderall because it was prescribed to them and it makes their lives modestly but noticeably better isn’t nearly as sexy as making all Adderall users out to be speed freaks (or the zombie children of parents duped by Big Pharma). But it is the truth. And I’m quite tired of hearing otherwise.
It seems the Anonymous Hollywood Actress (whom we shall henceforth refer to as AHA) has recently “flushed” her Adderall prescription down the toilet because she didn’t want to take it anymore and just throwing the pills out wasn’t melodramatic enough.
“Dumping my supply for good was not a ‘should I do this’ question,” she writes. ”It was really more of an ‘I have to do this’ imperative. I found myself losing friends and on the verge of losing work, too. I looked dead-eyed and soulless and raggedy and gaunt and obvious.
She goes on to detail how she was “attracting the wrong kind of men” and “creating dumb controversy,” writing long emails she later regretted, not improvising lines well, shutting down intimacy and ruining her personal relationships. All of this she attributes to the Adderall (which she is now off, and yet somehow still creating dumb controversy). And because AHA is now anti-Adderall, she thinks everyone else should be too. Why? The economy, stupid. And because people on it make no sense — unlike AHA, who writes paragraphs like this:
(Adderall’s) like an after-dinner aperitif or pot or cordials, everyone is chatting for hours and no one’s making any sense. People are just babbling and pretending that the economy isn’t falling apart. And now that I’m off of it, I do not want you hovering and buzzing around my psychic space if you are on the stuff. It’s toxic.
So toxic that when Jane Pratt asked her to write for xoJane (is it like a rule that everyone writing for Pratt has to mention her in a certain number of posts per week?) she knew she had to talk about “the very un-chic horror of finding myself surrounded by all these Adderall zombies.” People like Cat Marnell, whom she has never met but did read an article about and wants to help, and maybe also Britney Spears, whose tox-screen AHA saw in 2008 and would like to strongly imply that Adderall was on it. Anyway — AHA continues:
I went from 10 mg in the morning to 15 mg. Depending on how cokey I wanted to feel.
As any addict knows, Adderall feels spikey when you’re on it, like Ritalin in the impact.
Okay, first of all, 10 to 15 mg is a really small dose. Unless you are snorting it or combining it with some sort of other uppers or something, it should not typically be enough to make a grown person feel all “cokey.” In the interest of acknowledging that everybody reacts to things different (and of not doing what I’m complaining about), I’ll just say that I guess it affected AHA particularly strongly. Fine. But the next bit I take issue with, because do you know who Adderall does not make feel “spikey?” People with ADHD. You know, the condition the drug is prescribed for. [And probably narcoleptics, too, but I'm not sure.]