If you’ve been following my dear colleague’s Complaint Free April posts, you know the deal: Carrie, and now plenty of readers and ourselves, are attempting to stop complaining so much, as it winds up just increasing stress and frustrations. Even though it may make us feel better or even help us bond with others, it’s still not a healthy way of releasing stress. Unfortunately, I definitely have a bad habit of complaining versus doing — especially with regard to my health.
Despite my New Year’s resolution to start taking better care of my conditions, I have instead fallen back into the trap of ignoring them a bit. Granted, that’s partially because I’m (A) in-between insurance stuff and (B) I don’t have the — wait, no. Now I’m complaining again. And making excuses. Here, I’ll rewind, especially for those of you who don’t feel like reading my long and unpleasant New Year’s resolution.
I have a few medical conditions that make it difficult for me to go about my day pain-free, the most frustrating of which is fibromyalgia. It makes me exhausted, foggy, frustrated, sore and uncomfortable a large portion of the time, thus making exercising, working, going out and other activities more difficult than they used to be. Recently, I’ve managed to change my diet considerably in order to improve my wellness, mood and health, so I haven’t had to use my cane nearly as much as I used to. On the flip side of that, I have gained some weight and am both disappointed in myself and angry about what I look like.
I wake up tired and I can’t sleep at night, so each morning, it’s pretty easy for me to wake up grumpy and not be particularly nice when it comes to seeing other people. Not too many people I’m friends with know exactly what medical conditions I have, but I frequently tend to say, “I am so tired, ugh” or “I got literally 2 hours of sleep last night, I don’t feel like talking right now,” thus unnecessarily being grumpy with complaints about something nobody in the conversation can do anything about.
This isn’t healthy, nor is it helpful.