Let me start off this weekâ€™s post with some really, really great news. I lost more weight this week. I got back into a routine and feel like Iâ€™m heading in the right direction, physically and mentally.
Iâ€™m a woman of extremes. I either love you or hate you. I am either obsessed with something or I canâ€™t stand to be bothered with it. I go all in or I do not even blink an eyelash. There are very few things I do in a balanced, average way.Â I am going to happily pass on any lectures about this behavior; Iâ€™ve been this way my entire life and try as I might to be a little more â€śmildâ€ť, it is just not me. In fact, when I told my mom I was going back on Jenny Craig, she said â€śBe careful what you tell your readers because you are always all about whatever youâ€™re doing at the moment, and then over it 2 weeks later.â€ť Oh well, moving on.
In my 29 years, Iâ€™ve probably â€śstartedâ€ť 3590 diets, exercise plans or lifestyle changes. Every time they are accompanied by my all in attitude. I spend all day Sunday buying every book about healthy eating, chopping up veggies and fruits for the week, and I end up spending three hours a day at the gym for the first few weeks. Itâ€™s not realistic and itâ€™s not sustainable. The first time I â€ścheatâ€ť on the diet or miss a day at the gym, I crumble. Just give up and walk away.
Ridiculous example: A few years ago I was working out at home a lot so I bought Tracy Andersonâ€™s DVD for the 30 day body detox. It came with a menu plan, a workout DVD and a cleanse to end your 30 days to really get your body ready for healthy living. I never made it to the cleanse at the end (shocker, I know) but a couple years later I decided to pull out the book and do the cleanse solo. I loaded up at the grocery store and spent probably 6 + hours in my kitchen pureeing every food known to man. I thought it all seemed and tasted strange, but in the interest of getting skinny, Iâ€™ve seen stranger. I packed it all up in Ziploc bags and labeled them for the week. When Monday came, I proudly packed my breakfast, lunch and snack into a plastic bag and headed to the office. As I sat and tried to drink/spoon/actually digest whatever the bags contained, it was gag inducing. I could barely get it down.
I googled it to see if there were any tips to get through Tracy Andersonâ€™s cleanse, or at least make it bearable. I shouldnâ€™t have been surprised when I discovered that her cleanse also goes by the â€śBaby Foodâ€ť diet in Hollywood circles. There are a million things I will do in my diet and exercise efforts, but I draw the line at eating baby food. I threw out my ziplocs and promptly ordered a pizza.
This time around, Iâ€™m working on being less aggressive and more forgiving of myself. I explained to Carmen, my Jenny Craig consultant, this problem with extremes and she had a few great tips that have resonated with me this week.
I only exercised twice, and I definitely traded out more meals than I had planned, but I saw my weight go down. I think it was because I was realistic with myself. The overall reason I went back on the program was to give myself more of a routine, and you know what? After two months of missing breakfast most days, I ate breakfast every single day last week. It started my day being conscious of what was going in to my body and didnâ€™t leave me starving by noon to binge in the cafeteria.
This week is a BEAST in terms of social obligations. I have parties, concerts, dinners with friends and a trip to the Hamptons. My goal for the week is to have fun, but to not be extreme.Â And since I did such a good job getting my food back under control, this week is for the gym. Just a little at a time.
I think someone once said that slow and steady wins the race? Hereâ€™s hoping.
Weekly wrap up â€“ I lost 3 more pounds this week for an overall total of -4 lbs. Just 26 left to my goal.