A Feeling Of Self-Worth Toward A Higher Power

This feeling is mentioned in today’s Daily Reflection, “Fear and Faith.”

“Fear has caused suffering when I could have had more faith. There are times when fear suddenly tears me apart, just when I’m experiencing feelings of joy, happiness and a lightness of heart. Faith – and a feeling of self-worth toward a Higher Power – helps me endure tragedy and ecstasy. When I choose to give all of my fears over to my Higher Power, I will be free.”

I don’t often take the time to question how much faith I may have at any given moment, do you? Isn’t how much faith I may have “right now” a matter of what has developed, using the Twelve Steps, through the days, weeks, months and years of practicing the development of my relationship with the God I understand? Isn’t it also a matter of having found the level of faith I lacked at similar moments in my past learning from those times through the practice of the Twelve Steps?

I have to practice at, work at, changing my belief system. It said in the very first sentence of today’s reflection – “The achievement of freedom from fear is a lifetime undertaking, one that can never be wholly completed.”

With that in mind, ought I bother to waste the effort to question whether I should have more faith at a given moment? If suffering is occurring, I want to be in a state of mind where I have the chance to embrace this suffering as an opportunity to display my God’s magnificence!

Now… reaching that “place” is a bit of a steep uphill climb on a lot of occasions, isn’t it? As long as I follow His dictates though, and stay sober, there is hope I’ll make that climb at the time I need to. Therein lies that “feeling of self-worth toward my Higher Power.”