A Glimpse Into An Alcoholic Mind
February 19, 2007 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
I thought that might be an appropriate title for this entry considering that I’m about to begin it with “I was thinking today.”
Perfection. I was the type who had an unrealistic expectation of perfection from those around me. Who were those around me? Those who now have their own unrealistic expectation of perfection from me.
I must have taught them well.
My friend Mike is right on…
The disease hasn’t gone away and it still has the same agenda. It wants us dead, as in “US!” Everyone. With no prejudice. I must remember that and, as Mike said, be on guard for the unguarded moment. AA and my God were with me through the last few days because I’ve immersed myself, taken a bath, in AA, like I was strongly suggested to do.
It works if you work it.
The shame of it? As it appears today, doing my best to keep it in the day which isn’t working very well, these relationships will never reach “healthy.” They may never even reach “communicating” again. Of course, that is up to God’s plan, not mine and thankfully so…
I have this “clown” to thank for that if indeed that is the deal;
Things like this are the lower power’s work. [Graphic found at Uselessgraphics.com]
Never Say NEVER , GOD HAS THE LAST WORD ON all, BROTHER,SISTER RELATIONS ETC,,,all IS POSSABLE THUROUGH GOD . Sometimes we think we know whats best for us , because sometimes we feel we are on our way to living on a higher plan then those other people, only through Gods grace are we giving this day our daily breed ,strength and a peace most may never find . I was thouht along time ago where there is life there is hope I just look to the prayer of ST Frankie ya know the one ,,,when I say no never I’m doing exactly what my lower power wants for me to live with a negative mind , Iwas told many many times P M A Mike PMA Positive mental attitude , just do it and act as if you love them until you do act as if you understand them until you do and so on , go on give it a shot you don’t have anything to lose . do you ?
damn spell check let me down again
totally off subject can you find what I wrote on my brother , some knuckle head here thinks it should go to the grape vine , do ya think?
KNUCKLEHEAD!!!
Read the da** title! “A Glimpse Into An Alcoholic Mind.”
I admit it – I was thinking like an alkie – do I do something better?
I’ll try to find what you wrote about your brother… here it is
LITEN UP GEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ DUDE , KNUCKLEHEAD IM BEGAINING TO RESEMBLE THAT REMARK. THANKS
NO! DAMMIT!!! I’M BEGAINING TO ENJOY YELLING AT YOU!!!
Begaining? What are you doing to me???
lmao…
GEE YOUR UP EARLY?
Have a great day… unless you have other plans. I’ll be back tonight to write… God willing and the crick don’t rise.
no other plans margs went to a meeting and left me with 2 of my favorite sponsors my 13 yr old and my 7yr old , I learn patience and tolerance from them both , and boy oh boy do they have plans for me,,,Life is good , I NEVER HAD IT SO GOOD