A Small Piece Of Last July
July 6, 2007 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
Freedom
“Peace of mind. In the face of chaos and turmoil, in the face of emotional upheaval, despite world events, peace of mind without having to drink alcohol. I no longer have a need to escape from the bondage of my own brain, I no longer have to always be concerned about where my next drink is coming from, I no longer have to wonder when the next shoe will drop. My God has taken care of all that, for me. And I am thankful beyond description.”
Its Not In The Book!
“The wisdom of experience for 30, 40, 50 years!!! How dare I mock something like that.”
Never Say Never Revisited
[As I ponder why so many lack the acceptance that Bill W. and Dr. Bob founded Alcoholics Anonymous, that we really don’t need to re-discover A.A., that our literature need not be re-written with a never-ending list of authors with names other than the originals, that this program of recovery is not broken and - WE DON’T NEED TO FIX IT WITH YOUR NEW ONE!]
I Am An Instrument
“Beware and be aware of prideful people especially in the name of recovery. They aren’t moving out from themselves toward others and God, they probably have a personal agenda and your welfare isn’t #1 on their list.”
Reversing A Lifetime
“There was a lesson the oldtimers taught me that might be helpful. If I heard the same thing from more than one person, sort of like getting a second medical opinion, then I’d probably want to pay attention to it. If your gut tells you something might not be right, check it out with a couple of oldtimers. Your life might depend on it.”
thanks for these, I especially like “we realise we know only a little” it means for me that theres still lots ahead to look forward to & find out
Hi Mark
This is downright crazy.
I’ve been reading and contemplating Liz’s post “Say ‘Thank You’ ” for about 20 minutes now, and I feel there’s something I want to say………. but the minute I start writing, I’m unsure if I what I’m going to write is the real thing what I want to say. Would it be a mature thing to say or is it stupid…
It’s so difficult to decide what I want… or what is real or unreal. I don’t have anything to measure it by.
Another hurdle is my grandiose thinking. I set myself such high standards and goals that are virtually impossible to attain. And if I can’t attain them, I don’t want anything. The “all or nothing” attitude.
“Follow the heart” is my last resort, which I’m sometimes forced to take at the risk of making a huge, irreversible error. And if I think the risk is too great, then I don’t so anything at all.
I certainly feel that if I have a drink now, all my above questions will immediately look trivial, because then I’d be standing on a familiar platform upon which I’ve built my values and what’s right and what’s wrong and what’s immoral or how to behave or what to talk.
I also certainly feel that if I have a drink now, I’ll stop only after days of non-stop drinking, locking myself in my flat.
I really am not expecting you or anyone to say something like ‘do this and you’ll be alright’, because such things don’t happen. Moreover, I know I have the answers. I only have to find them, and I alone can do that.
And here in Bahrain, it’s such a tiny country and there’s only one AA group. And most of the members who I held in high esteem are not there any more (left the country, too busy, etc.) I don’t feel like asking anyone else to be a sponsor.
And I’m sorry, this ‘comment’ is not really relevant to the post, but I wanted to write anyway. please excuse me, and you don’t have to publish this.
Zakman, I think it fits perfectly with this post! Take a look at the first topic – Freedom – and tell me what you “hear.” Relate it to your first sentence “This is downright crazy.”
Hi Mark, I did read the post, but didn’t see how it related since my mind had already decided to ignore.
But I read it now, the first topic — those words were written for ME! How could I have been so blind?
I got my answers, Mark.
My peace of mind without taking a drink smashes all my doubts and problems over and beyond recognition!