Analyzing Your Dreams

I wanted to get to this post before it became time to take Trotter out for his walk. I tossed and turned all night, thinking about deadlines, ideas, commitments for both The Pet Set, Family and Blog Fabulous. (I TOATLLY forgot that this Sunday is Easter, that’s how busy I’ve been.)

It dawned on me that much of my worrying and sleeplessness resembled what my condition was like when I worked my “real” jobs in Corporatetown:

• Obsessing over marketing strategies
• Worrying about looming deadlines
• Regrets about something I said to someone
• Confusion about how to move forward
• Feeling inadequate when sales or contacts slow down
• Not eating right | missing meals
• Locked working in my office for hours

So, what has really changed since having decided to pursue my dream of owning my own business? Actually, not that much. Not That Much!? you exclaim? How can that be? All day long you hear and read commentary emphasizing that you have to love what you do, and make your dreams become a reality, isn’t that what all the Martha’s, Donald’s and StartUpNation.com experts say?

What they don’t tell you is that your personality type may sometimes get in the way. I am a worrier and a nervous nilly…although, I am able to make a decision, simply by judging by how tingly my fingers feel.

The difference at this point in my life is that my stress actually helps me stay focused on my business — for me and only me. At the corporate level, it was a toxic existence, because it was all for someone else’s judgement and approval. If I fail at this, I have only myself and the vision I laid out before me to blame.

Am I living my dream? Or living in a dream?

Well, I’d always hoped to be sitting in a home office, putting ideas together while looking out the window at my blooming Azalea bush, with my dog. Is it a peaceful dream, not yet…but soon.