Be honest… are you having an affair?

You know how innocently it begins – the flirting, the compliments, the fun.

Before long… WHAM! You’re into a full-blown relationship that’s scandalous, delicious, warm.

You’re having an affair… with your eating disorder.

At least that’s the way it felt to me.

The lies became an everyday part of my life.

I thought Ana was the only one who “really” knew me or cared about me.

I worried every moment that I would be caught.

I would have thrown friends and family away rather than break it off with Ana.

I risked my own safety just to have one more day wrapped in her arms.

Eventually, our affair became ugly.

I soon understood that Ana wasn’t just cheating with me; she was cheating on me. She wasn’t “mine”, but belonged to others. And we were all being equally deceived.

Yet I still loved her. Despite the fact that I knew she wasn’t good for me physically or emotionally, I thought we could last. I was too rapt in our deception to just walk away.

Thus it remained for years.

Horrifying, embarrassing in retrospect.

Do you feel like you’re having an affair with your eating disorder, too?

Do you find yourself lying to those around you to please Ana or Mia? Are you obsessed with your ED the way a man or woman obsesses about a lover?

It’s not too late to end your affair.

And believe me when I say that living the truth is much better than any clandestine embrace.

I know. I’ve been to bed with an eating disorder. And I’ve always awakened alone.