CFS Patients Deserve to Wear Cute Shoes Too
September 26, 2006 by laura
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
Yes you read that correctly. I made a judgement call this morning, when I was getting ready to go to work, and that was to wear cute shoes. Oh such cute shoes. Hard to walk in…but so sparkly, and they perfectly show off my great pedicure (which I chipped). By 10am, I could barely walk…..by noon, my feet were so swollen that I could barely wear said shoes. Now, the only thing that will fit my feet are fuzzy pink slippers. This didnt ever ever happen before the whole Chronic Fatigue thing entered my life. More than anything else, this upsets me. More than the hair falling out, the inconsistent sleep, the feeling crappy. I deserve to wear cute shoes. I work hard. I shell out good money for cute shoes….and this is how I am repaid. ARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!
Now I am going to pretend I am 90, and put my foot bath to good use. Get yourself one of these….its perfect for a day when your shoes, not to mention your illness gets the better of you.
It took me a long time to realize that cute shoes were no longer for me. Before CFIDS I never really liked shoes, and hated shopping for them, but had to wear pumps for work. Now? Now I drool over cute shoes that would kill a healthy person’s foot. I think it’s because I feel so shlumpy (a technical term) over all.
Jennie, I hear you on the schlumpiness – I work in an office (albeit) a casual one. Eventhough dress is casual, I am constantly challenging the dresscode. I will wear jeans, when I am not feeling fantastic….shhh i am wearing jeans today (not allowed to wear blue denim). And if i have an outfit that looks or feels like pajamas, chances are that I have worn it to work.
I have more shoes than just about anyone I know….and I just think its sad to keep them in the closet, when they deserve to be seen by the world. So occasionally I just have to break them out.
Laura,
How very well said. Right now due to problems with the sensory problems from wearing my former uniform of well-fitting clothing and jeans, I am often picking up pj pants at Walmart. (I formerly wore Lauren quite a bit…as well as other designer fashions.) The fabrics must be soft, and the swelling of late in hands in feet leave me unable to tolerate jewelry… Nothing tight will be tolerated. I who loved cute shoes…and at such an early age…I’m robbed of foods I love, clothes I loved…and the career I loved in design and art because my hand just simply cannot bear to grasp a brush….The pain is all over…and is on the top of the scale.
I miss my peers who were wonderful at the height of national success…But now… there is an entire different avoidance going on!
I have lost the gal who once was…and I miss her greatly!
Kind Thoughts.
Tallye