Fare Thee Well … Not Good-bye.
February 27, 2009 by Marc Audet
Filed under Relationships
This is difficult, though not as difficult as real life. I am sorry that I have not been as frequent here at MarriageActually as I should have been. This has been good, getting to know some of you as you would let us know you. To say that laying this down is easy is wrong. Doing this has been equally difficult as of late.
Things are not going well in Camelot. My armor is chinked and tarnished. And may need to be retired as well. I am no knight in shining armor and never have I proposed I was. It seems a horse of that white color that I have been unsteadily mounted needs to go out to pasture as well.
No, there is no Lancelot or Guinevere. No sordid affair. Nothing.
Unfortunately, as we have been transparent here on MA, we have had our marriage put under siege. Perhaps I have allowed it. I have heard that is was long ago. That is neither here nor there. It just is. I was under the delusion that things were better than they indeed are not. I remember that we have a great marriage. The best of anyone we know past or present. Except for one area. I presumed incorrectly and I apologize to you the readers here and mostly to Marye. For it is her that I have truly hurt and neglected. My idea of love is not the kind that makes up the fairy tales or any sort of romance novel. It is not hot, only a low simmer. But it has been steadfast and true. I have stumbled, tripped and fallen, but always gotten back up. I have not gone down for the count.
If this post seems self-centered and focused on Marc, it is. Because the failure of this chapter of Marrriage Actually and our marriage’s condition rests wholly on my shoulders.
I will miss posting, I wish it were different. Thank you for your continued prayers and support of Marye & I. I will miss y’all.
Blessings,
As I told Marye that her transparency and vulnerability was a help to us up here, so too have been your thoughts and musings.
Thanks, Marc.
See ya ’round.
Dhave
Thank you for your openness and vulnerability Marc. I get you, I am like you. Low simmer, I like that description. My husband is like Marye. You and Marye will be in my thoughts and prayers. I will miss seeing new MA posts in my news reader.
I commented on Marye’s post as well. I will keep both of you and your marriage in my prayers. God is bigger than any issue we face. Stay strong and much luck in the future.
you will be missed.
Lisa, Dhave, Chante and Tanya,
Thank y’all !
Marc:
Best of things to you and for you. No where you’ve gone or will go that some of us here have not already been.
Just remember that you are, unfortunately, members of a fallen race and that race doesn’t count too many knights in shining armor amongst its members.
David
Thank you David,
We are beginning counseling and in this type of thing. I don’t feel I am able to give counsel or opinions to others while we are having the troubles that we are currently going through.
But, we are still around.
Blessings,
Marc