February Fat Failure

How are your New Year’s Resolutions going?
Do you feel like a failure in February?
Have you doubted your sanity or wondered why this or that was so dang important to you?
Or are you going strong? Having a few successes and building steam?
I decided I was going to learn to run and lose 35 pounds and count calories.
Feb. 12 – How am I doing?
Well, I’m on track – basically.
The running at 6 am out at the track was a great idea. But, the pitch darkness out at the track next to the woods and the black man wearing black clothes driving the run-down pickup being the only other person out there. Well, it drove me indoors.
I tried to convince myself that he’s most likely NOT a rapist, he just represents every single rape myth ever told. Still. Waiting for mid-summer sunlight at 6 am to tackle that part of the goal.
I thanked God that I bought an elliptical machine for $25 a few months ago.
It’s not running at the park. But, it’s exercise. And since its in my house I can watch podcasts, Oprah reruns, The View.
I still like the idea of 6 am – because I know it will get done and because then I can deal with my high maintenance hair once and for all at the beginning of the day. But, if its not at 6 am its during Oprah, because that’s just fitting.
Calorie counting. Sucks. Still hate it. Time consuming putrid sucker of time. But, useful for a while so you really understand what’s in food.
Loving the Eat This, Not That! Book. I need it to be that easy. I need to not have to spend a lot of time thinking about calories and ingredients.
Don’t feel like a failure.
February should be the month you adjust your expectations.
Which part is working? Which part is not working? How can I make it work instead?
Oh, and yes, I lost 6 pounds. Which is on track for my goal of losing 36 pounds for the year.
My weight loss theory is this: Slow weight loss is permanent weight loss. Make only the changes you can live with for the rest of your life.