I Lacked Serenity
October 14, 2007 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
The first sentence of today’s daily reflection. How true! Seemingly always in a state of frustration.
The second sentence also hits home, today… “With more to do than seemed possible, I fell further behind, no matter how hard I tried.”
It hasn’t been easy leaving someone that I was emotionally invested in for over forty years but peace of mind and sobriety transcend all else in my life now. One of the realities of this move has been the small task of getting “back on track.” New living arrangements, different travel times and execution along with simply getting adjusted brought about some confusion and a bit of mental chaos with any writing schedule I had.
The third “statement” in today’s reflection is decidedly no longer true 
“Worries about things not done yesterday and fear of tomorrow’s deadlines denied me the calm I needed to be effective each day.”
I’m functioning at a much more wonderful level today and I owe it to my God together with the miracle He brought into my life – Alcoholics Anonymous. The reflections speaks to it: “I tried to focus on God’s will, not my problems, and to trust that He would manage my day. It worked!”
It isn’t perfect, nor will it ever be, but, as my friend Mel says “It’s a beautiful day in the land of the living!”
I know these changes must be tough. Probably some of the hardest things you’ve ever experienced, including everything to do with alcoholism.
At least with the program you have, you are able to keep it all in perspective and continue to trudge. Good luck.
They have been difficult dAAve, yet, nowhere near as difficult as my divorce from my first wife.
This lady and I knew each other as teenagers, got separated for forty years, then reunited, but the damage done in those years was not able to be overcome.
Grateful yet sad. Thanks for your thoughts…