I Lost My heart, South of San Francisco…

It was in Monterey, Ca. actually, to a fiery brunette soldier from Texas. She still has it, it may not feel like it to her right now. But, she does still have it. Somewhere in the fall of 1979, When I saw her, I was a goner. It has been a couple of times around the block and my heart still skips a beat. Perhaps lopes would be a better term. For the past couple of years it hasn’t felt like it has still been this way. I have had a problem.

I’m not going to be able to explain this clearly, but I want to try. My problems haven’t been with my beautiful bride of the past nearly three decades. They are me. and I don’t know if I can even fully understand. Because I am not a self-examining type of person. Now, There is an understatement!

What I am coming to understand is that I have lost heart over the events of the past two or three years. In my health, I Have had a battle. One after the other, but that isn’t it. I have had struggles with my career and my satisfaction with it. Still not it. I have lost part of myself in a number of facets in my life. Marye and I have struggled in our relationship and that is my fault. Unfortunately that isn’t all of it. And I don’t know the “All” of it. What I do know is that I haven’t lost heart. Elseways, I would have taken my life a couple of years ago.

I have lost my heart. It is still in God’s hands, but I haven’t a clue where it is. I have been looking. I have been reading and praying and I want it back. This is I guess what I have been futilely trying

to find the words to say. Maybe it is just numb from all of the prescription narcotic drugs that I am currently on. I am hoping and praying that in finding it and resuscitating it it will be right again.

Can I have it back now Lord?

So Kid, bear with me a little longer. I think I found it and I’m dusting it off,cleaning it up with the Lord’s help and bringing it back top life.

I love you and yes i want to talk. Maybe we can use the cards. You are worth it all!

me