I so want peanut butter right now
October 14, 2008 by angelique
Filed under Women's Health
Here’s where a negative body image comes into play in a rather predictable, but somewhat amusing way:
I want peanut butter.
No, wait… I really want peanut butter.
But I already ate dinner.
If I eat peanut butter, that’s too many calories. I’ll get fat.
But if I don’t eat peanut butter, I’ll think about it until I can get my hands on some.
And if that happens, I’ll indulge.
Okay, so I’m going to eat something else.
(A bowl of cereal and two Laffy Taffys later…)
I want peanut butter.
And so the saga begins again…
Isnt’ it sad the games we play to try to deny what our body really wants and needs?
I go through this saga EVERY DAY! I hate it and it plagues me. Logically I know I need protien and just eat the spoonful, but ED’s voice is louder and sucks me into the never ending cycle.
That’s funny because I really wanted peanut butter last night. A PB and honey sandwich, to be specific. I think I was craving fat since my day-to-day intake is pretty low.
I tell myself I’ll regret it later. Because if I give in, I always do. Sad really.