Losing Him
May 24, 2008 by Sasha Manuel
Filed under Relationships
When that event happens, you will feel empty. You will feel lost. You will feel scared. You will feel insecure.
I’m not talking about a break up. A break up can’t hold a candle to it. A break up is nothing compared to it.
I’m talking about not seeing him again. Ever. Even if you try your hardest. There’s no chance of bumping into him. No anonymous calls or sms. Nothing. You’ll never hear from him ever again.
Losing him. A period to a sentence. A life lived without his existence. Gone. Nada. Kaput.
Yea, you lost him but you do have memories.
I lost my father recently. The one man I know who loves me unconditionally. The one man who accepts me. And, I’d like to think, the one man whose eyes lit up the first time he gazed upon me — holding me in his arms — cuz he knew he’ll love me forever.
This loss caused me to fear a bit. To ask questions. To wonder if I’ll ever find a man who would want to spend the rest of his life loving me.
Meanwhile, all I can do is hope. Trust that if it’s my fate to find such a man then it’ll come to pass.
With sadness, I think about my loss. With joyful anticipation, I look forward to the man who will show me that such a love, though not perfect, is still possible.
Author note: I apologise if some would find this post irrelevant to the blog’s topic. I needed to share this insight, however personal it may seem.
Your dad will always be at your side …..with the same love and care as when he was on earth. Be happy in knowing he is there
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I lost my father when I was 9 years old. He has been at my side ever since.
Sasha, I know the pain of losing someone very close. I lost my brother and it is hard. It makes breakups and heartbreaks from relationships pale in comparison.
You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers. Take your time, heal as best you can and live to honor him in a way he would have you live.
Sasha,
There is no one who can take his place, but there is a man somewhere who would be very lucky to know a thoughtful and caring woman like you. Just be patient.
Sorry for your loss.