Me and H.P.

This will come as a surprise to a couple of good friends. It is an example of “thinking?” My thinking overnight based on some words that were offered to me yesterday.

But first – regardless of the outcome I am thankful because I have been motivated. The motivation was certainly from the God I understand today. All the frills that came along with it may have hidden its meaning for a day or two but I was finally able to see the signpost. Therefore, within a couple of days the SCCSCU will be in receipt of a letter, however poorly written or not it may be, that they had requested and my disturbance with them had put off. I am still disturbed by their lack of trust in me but I have more important issues to get past.

So – from page 85 of AA’s Big Book;

“It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for alcohol is a subtle foe. We are not cured of alcoholism. What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition.”

I.E. – for me – through relatively simple consideration last night, I can remember that I am more than simply a drivers license and a motorcycle. I am certainly not a loser because those are two items not in my material inventory today. However, they are certainly within reach. There’s the line though. Being judged for what you don’t have rather than where you are striving to be.

And it’s ok. One person doesn’t know – her. One person does know – me. I am able today, by the grace of my God, to pull myself up and take care of business. And not be my own worst judge anymore.

“Every day is a day when we must carry the vision of God’s will into all of our activities. ‘How can I best serve Thee – Thy will (not mine) be done.’ These are thoughts which must go with us constantly. We can exercise our will power along this line all we wish. It is the proper use of the will.”

I’ve never had it so good!