Memories of Ana ~ Cheez-Its

It’s funny the things you remember when you reflect on an Ana-filled youth.

One of the strongest memories I have is of a day when I was probably 14 or 15.

I had starved myself throughout the day, trying very hard to fast.  (We all know where that can land a person… but I digress…)

Then I encounted The Box of Cheez-Its.

Suddenly, all I could think about were those orange squares of salty snacking goodness.

I tried to resist them.  I tried to tell myself I could just fall asleep and perhaps eat one in the morning as a reward.  I tried to berate myself in my best “Ana” inner voice.

In the end, I ate handful after handful. 

I hated myself that night.

But I still love Cheez-Its.