No One’s Self-Awareness Is Permanent
April 2, 2008 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
Returning to yesterdays’ Daily Reflection… (sarcasm ahead)
Looking Within
Ambivalent feelings: “Simultaneously feeling opposing or contradictory feelings.”
“By discovering what my emotional deformities are, I can move toward their correction. Without a willing and persistent effort to do this, there can be little sobriety or contentment for me.”
Contentment? I’m not sure I know what the word means…
“the neuro-physiological experience of satisfaction and being at ease in one’s situation, body, and/or mind.”
Satisfaction? At Ease? Well, gotta admit (rat on the disease?) these are two conditions not very prevalent in my mind lately. There’s an answer!
“To resolve ambivalent feelings, I need to feel a strong and helpful sense of myself.”
And there’s also a challenge 
Let’s see if you’ve ever allowed this to happen to you – not feeling good enough? Jealous? Left out? And, btw, do you believe you’re doing the best you can with what you have, that you’re living in the spirit? Practicing whatever Step you need to today? Being good to your fellow man?
The real question is – does it still seem like life deals you a dirty hand more often than it deals you a winner, by a lot?
“Such an awareness doesn’t happen overnight, and no one’s self-awareness is permanent. Everyone has the capacity for growth, and for self-awareness, through an honest encounter with reality. When I don’t avoid issues but meet them directly, always trying to resolve them, they become fewer and fewer.”
On occasion, I’m part of the “reality bites” gang. Shoot – I can hear Matt now. “Did you drink today? NO! DAMMIT!!!
not feeling good enough , or feeling better then , jealous or not desiring . left out or picked on too much ,, face it we got it all . its the work i chose to put in to it . Or in other word “the effort” mountains of effort .
I tell ya when I was feel less then this afternoon I got a call from a pigeon we;ll call him E V ,ah it was eric and let me tell ya this was one of those calls from God Thu another as usual. But he called from my drive way and ask for some coffee , so we had an old Dinning room table AA meeting . Boy after that I knew I was right where I was supposed to be. funny how that works .
Oh BTW its nice to have people that are my friends today and do what they say they there going to do , Even if there 900 miles away,
Thanks for the help Mark .
Glad to be here
Doggone… a real, live, dining room AA with coffee meeting? Add envious to the list LOL.
UR welcome, hope it is of some help
yea a real live meeting , we had chance to have a ol tell your story and share meeting on Easter Sunday . Some old guy Bill Lynch with like 35 or so years suggested it there were about 7 of us .
He called it a bare and share or something like that dont quote me and yes he uses his last name ,
Yea some help ,,,jezzz Had know idea I was so wordy ,,,meeeee nhaww
Oh ,,,love what you;ve done with the place. lots more links and so on ,,,
Well – - – you weren’t that wordy, lmao
Of course, in your case, you might want to revisit 6 & 7 someday
Bwaaaa Haaaaa Haaaaa!!!
Good to c u back
hey there Mark! hope all is well at ur end.
off topic: i tagged you…
http://www.straightfromthedoc.com/50226711/tagged_by_allergizer_the_7_random_things_about_me.php
contentment?
For me, when the committee is at bay. When I’m living in Steps 3 and 12.
Yep dAAve! Right on point…
The Itty Bitty Shi**y Committee. Boy, do I hear you!!!
AND – the solution
Gloria? Tagged eh? ‘S been a while