Rapacious Creditor – Powerless – No Choice
January 28, 2009 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
In the very beginning of the First Step;
“Alcohol, now become the rapacious creditor, bleeds us of all self-sufficiency and all will to resist its demands. Once this stark fact is accepted, our bankruptcy as going human concerns is complete.”
All will to resist its demands!
Resist – “to attempt to counter the actions or effects of someone or something.”
I.E. I cannot counter my alcoholic obsession. It calls and I cannot say no. I am powerless.
With you and God I have the ability to withstand for now, for today. Oh, and I’m not getting the ability, by myself, to counter the obsession, back again – ever! Its gone!
All will. Look, I just don’t have a choice in this matter with alcohol. Were I to put it in me, once again I couldn’t say no to the next… whatever, drink, bottle, gallon, makes no difference. Even when I don’t ingest it I am still powerless because I don’t have the ability to walk up to an active drinker and convince them to stop killing themselves. Alcohol clouds their judgment and responsible senses. I can’t stop them. I am powerless.
The next time you become so smart you share in a meeting that you aren’t powerless over alcohol today because you didn’t drink any, use your imagination and consider the parents of a child killed in a drunken accident and how they would have loved to have had some power over alcohol like you do.
Mark, why is it that no one seems to understand this anymore?
MC,
Just mpo but – first things first – where better a forum for the disease itself to speak but at an AA meeting?
2nd – again, my personal opinion, I think we have allowed a generation or so of folks to grow up without what our sponsors did. I.E. too many either think it is wrong to step on feelings with the truth or too many are afraid of hurting others’ feelings and not being liked from that.
We’ve become too PC.