The Hideous Four Horsemen
September 26, 2008 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
“Then would come oblivion and the awful awakening to face the hideous Four Horsemen”
Terror – Extreme or intense fear.
Bewilderment – Confused or perplexed.
Despair – To give up all hope or expectation.
Frustration – Dissatisfied, agitated, and/or discontent because one is unable to perform an action or fulfill a desire.
It’s no coincidence that they follow directly the seeking out of “sordid places, hoping to find understanding companionship and approval.”
It is also no coincidence that shortly thereafter we find;
“He cannot picture life without alcohol. Some day he will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know loneliness such as few do. He will be at the jumping-off place. He will wish for the end.”
Please, pay attention in meetings and you’ll hear those of us who will say they “wished they could die.” If that thought has your “hinge” working (you’re shaking your head in an acknowledging motion), you’re probably in the right place.
[Alcoholics Anonymous, pages 151-152]
