The Weigh We Were
March 28, 2008 by angelique
Filed under Women's Health
It’s annoying at best, overwhelming at worst, this preoccupation with weight so many of us have.
I can’t even get away from it by looking at photographs.
Somehow, I can always remember my exact (or almost exact) weight in all photos from about age 12 until now. I’m serious. It’s strange.
I don’t even recall many of the faces or places or dates or times of the pics, but I know damn well that I weighed “x” amount of pounds.
Of course, I keep those things to myself, but they still weigh on me. (pun intended)
I have a good idea about that too, and sadly when I see pictures of myself when I was heavier, I have no rational distance from that time. I see the photo and think, “that’s what I look like!” even though I’m as much as 75 pounds lighter now. Annoying and overwhelming for sure.
I understand and share that irrationality about the “distance” factor. It’s peculiar; I look in the mirror and do not see what others see. I suppose I might never, and that’s okay as long as I don’t allow it to affect my confidence… too much.
I do this with photos from age 14 on, but also seasons and months of each year. You can name a random time – say July 2001 – and I’ll tell you exactly what I weighed then.
DPG:
Did you ever have an ED? Or could this be somethat that some of us just do?
Thanks for commenting!
Yeah, I had and still have one (anorexia/bulimia). Sometimes I don’t know if I’ll ever get fully recovered…