They Do Not Compute
February 23, 2008 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
Especially for a powerful negative thinker…
“Mysterious Paradoxes”
The Daily Reflection for Feb., 23rd.
“Such is the paradox of A.A. regeneration: strength arising out of complete defeat and weakness, the loss of one’s old life as a condition for finding a new one.”
A.A. Comes Of Age, p. 46
“What glorious mysteries paradoxes are!”
Really? Not to a negative thinker… like I was.
“They do not compute, yet when recognized and accepted, they reaffirm something in the universe beyond human logic.”
Where’s Spock when I need him? Did you have a scientific, analytical mind like me?
“When I face a fear, I am given courage; when I support a brother or sister, my capacity to love myself is increased; when I accept pain as part of the growing experience of life, I realize a greater happiness; when I look at my dark side, I am brought into a new light; when I accept my vulnerabilities and surrender to a Higher Power, I am graced with unseen strength.”
All of these stand in direct contradiction to my thinking when I was drinking. Can you identify?
“I stumbled through the doors of A.A. in disgrace, expecting nothing from life, and I have been given hope and dignity.”
I surely didn’t want “you” to look at me and think I was a disgrace sooooo – I looked good at my first meeting! Except many of “you” knew what was going on on the inside…
None of this is true today but all of it is simply an act of neglect away, for me, again. Therefore;
“Miraculously, the only way to keep the gifts of the program is to pass them on.”
