This… Isn’t… Easy

My challenge is that regardless of doing the right thing I cannot get my expectations up that the results will be what I want them to be.

Therein lies one of my realities. I can care about someone. The level at which I care can increase. I can recognize right from wrong. I can do the right thing not simply in my opinion but in the opinion of many trusted, experienced friends. And the results might not be, will probably not be, what I would want in my dreams.

Which brings me to aligning my will with God’s will.

“More often, though, we had met up with some major calamity, and to our way of thinking lost out because God deserted us. … Damn this faith business!”

It’s funny – I could write right here and now and tell you to your face, if you’re reading, I care about you. You wouldn’t even know it’s you. I could admit that I’m not going to give you any indication at all that I have feelings for you. Yet you may never know. If I were given the opportunity to tell you to your face it probably wouldn’t make any difference. I’ve gotten the perception already that you barely know I exist.

Because that is what my experience has taught me.

“We saw them meet and transcend their other pains and trials. We saw them calmly accept impossible situations, seeking neither to run nor to recriminate. This was not only faith; it was faith that worked under all conditions. We soon concluded that whatever price in humility we must pay, we would pay.”