Unless I Had Come To Believe

I’d have never been able to put any credence in today’s Daily Reflection.

Guidance

“… this means a belief in a Creator who is all power, justice, and love; a God who intends for me a purpose, a meaning, and a destiny to grow, however … haltingly, toward His own likeness and image.”

As Bill Sees It, p.51

“As I began to understand my own powerlessness and my dependence on God, as I understand Him, I began to see that there was a life which, if I could have it, I would have chosen for myself from the beginning.”

This is in direct contradiction to the belief I had when I was drinking. There are still times when I struggle with these statements. For ex., I’d have never chosen the life I’m living now, in the beginning. Understanding that this sounds negative, let me say it is… quite a bit. There’s a huge difference today. I am enormously grateful for the life I am living! That is also in direct contradiction to the way I felt when I was drinking!

Do you think that might be why it says “however … haltingly?” I do

“It is through the continuing work of the Steps and the life in the Fellowship that I’ve learned to see that there is truly a better way into which I am being guided.”

Right there I find me in a world of impatience. How about you? “Time Takes Time.” Bleh…

“As I come to know more about God, I am able to trust His ways and His plans for the development of His character in me. Quickly or not so quickly, I grow toward His own image and likeness.”

When I was drinking, I thought He was there alright… only I swore continuously that His plans for me were not what I wanted for me and they pi**ed me off! Today, sober, I’ve never had it so good because, whether I like it or not, His plans for me are for my benefit, not for evil. I simply (?) have to be patient enough to let them unfold the way they’re meant to.