http://www.blisstree.com/articles/what-fuels-your-addiction-325/ Family, Health, Home and Lifestyles Fri, 11 Dec 2009 14:44:59 -0500 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.4 hourly 1 http://www.blisstree.com/articles/what-fuels-your-addiction-325/comment-page-1/#comment-114585 Claire Thu, 13 Nov 2008 02:46:38 +0000 http://www.breakingthemirror.com/2008/11/12/what-fuels-your-addiction/#comment-114585 I don't know about the whole eating disorder = addiction thing. My therapist believes it's more complicated than that. I have a friend in my ED group who is bulimic. Once she said something to me about the "euphoria" I must get from purging, thinking I would agree with her. I don't think I really get a high from purging, or restricting for that matter. In fact I hate how anorexics are compared to drug addicts or alcoholics. There is a guy in my group who's a drug addict (as well as COE), and he drives me crazy talking about "getting his fix" and his "disease of addiction." I guess having an eating disorder is a different experience for everyone. My bulimic friend says that she could binge and purge all day, that she actually enjoys it. I hate purging, everything about it. And I hate starving myself. I guess it's just means to an end for me. I want to lose weight so I can be thinner than everyone and be "special." Part of my fear of recovering is losing that cache. My greatest worry is being normal or average, and I can't explain why, but it terrifies me. I just don't think I am simply "addicted." I don’t know about the whole eating disorder = addiction thing. My therapist believes it’s more complicated than that. I have a friend in my ED group who is bulimic. Once she said something to me about the “euphoria” I must get from purging, thinking I would agree with her. I don’t think I really get a high from purging, or restricting for that matter. In fact I hate how anorexics are compared to drug addicts or alcoholics. There is a guy in my group who’s a drug addict (as well as COE), and he drives me crazy talking about “getting his fix” and his “disease of addiction.”
I guess having an eating disorder is a different experience for everyone. My bulimic friend says that she could binge and purge all day, that she actually enjoys it. I hate purging, everything about it. And I hate starving myself. I guess it’s just means to an end for me. I want to lose weight so I can be thinner than everyone and be “special.” Part of my fear of recovering is losing that cache. My greatest worry is being normal or average, and I can’t explain why, but it terrifies me. I just don’t think I am simply “addicted.”

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