Why Can’t I Just Admit It To God?
May 2, 2007 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
Why do I have to admit the exact nature of my wrongs to another human being?
“The best reason first: If we skip this vital step, we may not overcome drinking. Time after time newcomers have tried to keep to themselves certain facts about their lives. Trying to avoid this humbling experience, they have turned to easier methods. Almost invariably they got drunk. Having persevered with the rest of the program, they wondered why they fell. We think the reason is that they never completed their housecleaning. They took inventory all right, but hung on to some of the worst items in stock. They only thought they had lost their egoism and fear; they only thought they had humbled themselves. But they had not learned enough of humility, fearlessness and honesty, in the sense we find it necessary, until they told someone else all their life story.”
We are masters of self-delusion! Consider this;
Did we not, for years or even decades, swear we didn’t have a drinking problem? Didn’t we also swear that the next time it would be different? Didn’t we also swear that we could stop anytime we wanted to? Didn’t we also swear we were hurting no one but ourselves?
Masters of self-delusion! Egotistical!
How egotistical is it to think that we might be able to hide some putrid fact of our lives from God? Pretty damned egotistical, if ya’ ask me… yet, somewhere, in our minds, it lurks that if I don’t have to share it with another human being, no one will know – and I won’t have to work on that. Delusional…
