Without Some Degree Of Humility
July 4, 2008 by Mark
Filed under Diseases & Conditions
No alcoholic can stay sober at all…
Then, directly related to self-centeredness in the extreme, “Unless they develop much more of this precious quality than may be required just for sobriety, they still haven’t much chance of becoming truly happy.”
Which, for now, is where I lose understanding.
The state of mind is such that faith and humility are sorely lacking meaning that selfishness is on the table. Do the right thing, do the right thing, do the right thing… and? What?
“Humility, as a word and as an ideal, has a very bad time of it in our world.” It is having a very bad time of it in my world – now! Thankfully, this too shall pass.
Whenever God seems as if He’s farther away than normal, check who’s moved. Me. Selfish.
Do the right thing and the exact same old crap continues to happen, without fail. One specific area, the single most fearful area, stays precisely where it has always been despite making use of new lessons and “seeing” God at work.
“Not only is the idea misunderstood; the word itself is often intensely disliked.”
Master of self-delusion. Keep my will out of it, part of the solution. Let Go and Let God. Same results. Faith struggles.
What am I willing to do today to not drink alcohol? ANYTHING!!! Whatever it takes…
Meeting – check. Shared it – check. Prayed – check. Talked to another alkie – check. Gave thanks – check. Helped someone else – check.
Acceptance? Nope! God Box? Been there, done that with this again and again. Willing to do it again? Nope… Selfishness.
“We are sure that no class of people in this world ever made a worse mess of trying to live by this formula than alcoholics.”
“Material satisfactions were not the purpose of living.” That’s right! That was etched in stone decades ago and also hasn’t changed ever! Hell, now there’s two areas…
In a few minutes my head will hit the pillow and there won’t be any booze in me! I’m damn well a miracle!
“The attainment of greater humility is the foundation principle of each of A.A.’s Twelve Steps!”
Accept and deal… and… have a good night… 
As you know, one of the great lessons we can learn is …
This Too Shall Pass.
Um – yep! Then it returns, then passes, then returns, then passes, then… oh, you get the idea.
For His reason, He has decided this one I get to keep. And I don’t want it!!!
I once heard an ol timer say over and over again “You have got to accept it just as it is.” If I truly accept a situation and the acceptance is absolute and total it will change. If it does not change I now figure I have not really accepted the situation. I tried to side step, half-step or cheat. True humility is the desire to seek and do God’s will. Knowing Gods will is a huge subjet! I am so glad that the authors of BIg Book of Alcoholics Anonymous and the Basic Text were smart enough to stay out of this battle. There approach is simple If something works for us, it is probably Gods will. Think about it and see if it works for you.
I am still struggling to understand the kind of code language or slang you are using in your posts
can some one please explain?
Raj,
Get to a meeting and engage yourself with a sponsor. That is the someone who can explain this to you!
Yes Mark, that’s just what I have been intending to do from quite some time now. I think I’ll do that now and stop intending …
Raj,
I’ll imagine you’ve heard this…
The road to hell is paved with good intentions.
It’s your life at stake Raj.