However, doing so involves being able to affirm oneself, and that’s something that I find terribly difficult. It’s easy for me to automatically chastise myself for even the smallest faux pas: “You’re so stupid, Angelique!” But it’s damn tough for me to congratulate myself: “Way to go!  You did a good job!”

I’ve begun to wonder what it would be like if I could as easily affirm myself as I do put myself down.  Would that increase the distance between myself and ana?  Would it rid me of her nagging voice for good?

What if I didn’t spend every waking hour thinking that I should be doing more, working more, going to the gym more, being a better friend, being a better mommy, being a better wife, being a better freelancer…? What if I just allowed myself to fail sometimes but still celebrate my intrinsic worth?

I suppose it boils down to many factors, including my upbringing. I’m without brothers and sisters, a typical only child overachiever. Nothing is good enough for me, and I’m expected to be the best… all the time. My parents never specifically told me that, but I always felt that failure (or at least mediocrity) wasn’t an option.

Today, I don’t live with my mother and father, and my husband is super supportive… yet I can’t seem to rid myself of the negative thoughts that nag. I wish I could include daily affirmations into my routine, but it’s something I’ve struggled with for years.

How about you? Is it tough to love yourself and just be happy with who you are, right now, instead of berating yourself for not being who you think you should be?

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