I have no idea how this popped into my head, but I wanted to share something with you.
Several years ago, when my mother got sick you may remember she was in and out of the hospital a lot and I stayed with her during those times.
Things got a might hairy for me as I lived at the hospital at night (and hoo boy, if something weird was going to happen, it sure happened then), worked during the day and took care of my family in the evenings.
I actually thought I was doing well until the night I …read more

This past Sunday was the second anniversary of my mother’s death.
I would tell you how it went for me, but I was out of town and had my dates mixed up and I thought Sunday was the 19th rather than the 20th. When I finally became oriented to date and time, I did pretty well with the whole thing, it’s just really still so strange to me, almost surreal.
I didn’t talk to my dad that day because I was flying most of it, and I thought the significant day was the next day anyway.
I know he’s not going …read more

A wonderful Mother’s Day tribute from Carol at Mothering Mother and More:
I miss Mother when I go to the grocery store. Since I’m no longer eligible to park in the parking spaces for the handicapped, I must walk by the light blue and white lines as I head across the parking lot that no longer takes me ten minutes to cross. I see Mother grip the handle of the grocery cart and remember the freedom this rolling walker gave her.
Read the rest.
I can so relate, it is the little things you miss.
For me, it’s the Spring Lands’ End catalog. …read more

My mother’s birthday was a couple of days ago.
I was talking to my middle child, age 11 and said that perhaps he could say an extra prayer for her since it was her birthday.
I added, not terribly seriously, that I had no idea if they celebrated birthdays in heaven.
My son piped up, “Sure they do. They have angel food cake.”

Though it’s been over a year since my mother died, I have always been able to count on her best friend (who’s now my friend by default, I guess, she’s older than I, but, younger than my mother) to talk about my mother with me.
We’ve been communicating on a regular basis, and, she’s tried to keep up with my kids, mainly because I think my mother asked her to. But, lately, she’s been a bit distant, with issues of her own.
I guess even she’s moved on a bit from my mother’s death, and, rightly so. I guess I …read more

Apparently, I forgot to write about the first anniversary (July 20th) of my mother’s death here.
I started talking about it at Busymom.net, and, I guess I just kept going over there.
Prior to the day, I found myself really restless, and, I couldn’t really pinpoint why, but, I guess this was it.
I talked to my dad to try to figure out what he was thinking, and, to see if he wanted to do anything in particular to celebrate (?) it.
He didn’t say anything about it, though he sounded a little down. I talked to him again later …read more

Apropos of nothing, really, I’ve just observed that I have a hard time referring to my parents without conjugating the verb “to-be”, and, a wielding slash mark or two since my mother died, e.g., “My parents are/were…”, or, “They do/did…”
That’s all. Move along now.

I admit I’m having a hard time as Mother’s Day (this Sunday) approaches, it will be the first one since my mother died last year. I have a hard time on Sundays, anyway, so, I’m really not looking forward to it.
It’s weird, it’s not like we did anything really big for it, or, anything, but, it’s just another “first” we have to go through.
The advertising, and, gift guides that abound don’t bother me, nor do people talking about their plans. In fact, now that I think about it, I’m not sure it has to do with Mother’s Day at …read more

One of my mother’s friends took me out to lunch yesterday. They have all been very good to me, but, one thing I’ve noticed is that the topic of my mother is coming up less frequently when we are together.
Of course, if I wanted to talk about something related to her, they would. However, the natural progression of our conversations doesn’t include her as frequently.
But, you know? I think that’s OK. We’ve not forgotten, perhaps we are all moving forward.

Today is/would have been (what is the proper terminology, here?) my mother’s 72nd birthday.
Don’t know if it’s necessary anymore, but, if it’s customary, I hope they throw a decent party for her in Heaven.
It’s one of those first year after death milestones. So far, though it’s obviously on my mind, it hasn’t been too bad, emotionally.
I haven’t talked to my father. However, he had issues remembering it when she was alive, so, we’ll see if he says anything.
Thus far, I have celebrated by giving a homeless guy 50 cents for a beer, which I NEVER do, he just struck me …read more