Must I Become a Witch to Destroy Ana?

angelique — Mon, 29 Sep 2008 01:32:03 +0000

There’s a certain word used to describe women who are verbally strong (some might say aggressive.) That word rhymes with “witch” and I must say I’ve used it plenty of times myself.

However, I’ve never really been one of those gals who could say what I mean 100% of the time without worrying about public opinion. And I wonder if that’s good for a recovering anorexic?

Sometimes, I think that being a bitch might make kicking ana’s arse much easier. I could just tell her to go fug herself and be done with the matter. Instead, I’m too nice — way too nice. So I let her hang around.

This weekend, I tried to remove her once and for all from the attic of my mind… seems she had recently taken up residence there without my approval. And to celebrate her moving in, she began telling me how disgusting and horrid I was.

It then that I wished I could be a be-atch of the first degree. I wanted to say to ana, “Listen, sweetie. Get your scrawny butt outta here pronto or there will be hell to pay.”

I didn’t, though.

Instead, I shut the attic door and vowed not to go back there no matter how strong her siren’s song became.