“Then would come oblivion and the awful awakening to face the hideous Four Horsemen”
Terror – Extreme or intense fear.

Bewilderment – Confused or perplexed.

Despair – To give up all hope or expectation.

Frustration – Dissatisfied, agitated, and/or discontent because one is unable to perform an action or fulfill a desire.

It’s no coincidence that they follow directly the seeking out of “sordid places, hoping to find understanding companionship and approval.”
It is also no coincidence that shortly thereafter we find;
“He cannot picture life without alcohol. Some day he will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know …read more