Bereavement Bruises
October 29, 2008 by Anna Farmery
Filed under Grief
When I was in hospital recently, I had a lot of blood tests. After the 3rd lot of blood was taken, a big bruise started to form. It made me think that although we learn to live with the pain of bereavement, the pain of grief and even loneliness…do we develop bereavement bruises that may be invisible to us……but others can see.When I think about me, I suspect I have a few bruises on show that I believe others can seeBeing very careful not to open my heart, so I can’t be hurt….for nowReminisicing much more than I used to…Up and down health depending on my state of mindInsecurity and lack of self confidence.Socially less active and more insularEmotionally drained. I seem to have less emotional energy for others, which is very unusual for me Do you have any widow or widower bruises that has been caused by your grief?
My bruises are similar to yours. One thing, though, I’ve been acutely conscious of my age. I’m no longer young (and I haven’t been for awhile–lol). I always felt a lot younger than my actual years. Since Michael died, I’ve aged mentally (and physically, too).
Oh Mary that is so true! I wonder why…maybe it is the shutting down of emotions that shuts down your energy and your zest for life…people say that you look on the outside what you feel on the inside?