As I cannot feel your loss as I have not been married for many years, I know the loss of a vibrant, funny, smart, talented and wondeful 17 yr old daughter, and you have my sympathies and my heart.

There are times I wish that I could just let everyones hurts and grief on me as I am already broken. there is nothing more that can afect me or that can change me as burying my child.

I still get upset when people say to me, “it will get easier with time”, like Im waiting for a broken foot to heal! I know they mean well but it doesn’t get easier with time, it just gets different.

There are stages of greif you are going thru and will go thru and sometimes we waver back and forth between the stages. And it’s ok. and it’s better to go thru them as they come up rather than pushing them down because sooner or later the dam will burst .

If I could take your pain and put it on me I would in a heart beat. But life does not let us choose how things happen, but please know that along with my prayers, I am sending you my strength.

If you ever want to write to me directly im jeb5775 at yahoo. I don’t have alot of answers sometimes but I have enough unconditional love to lift you up when you feel low.

Jackie b

I have support of friends and neighbors, but they do have their own lives and families. Like other widows, I know how lonely the nights and weekends are. I used to think that my husband and I spent too much time together, but had I known of his death in advance, maybe I would not have thought that. I miss him terribly, and my consolation is that we told each other “I love you” several times a day. I miss the human contact (the hugs, etc.) so much.

Thank you for this blog. It is helpful for me to read through it.