Comments on: Do you feel scared? http://www.blisstree.com/widowsquest/do-you-feel-scared/ Redefine Yourself and Rediscover Life after a Loss Thu, 10 Dec 2009 23:53:15 -0500 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.4 hourly 1 By: Jessica http://www.blisstree.com/widowsquest/do-you-feel-scared/comment-page-1/#comment-1085 Jessica Wed, 02 Jul 2008 19:40:28 +0000 http://www.widowsquest.com/do-you-feel-scared/#comment-1085 I don't know if I would describe my feelings as being scared - but maybe reluctant is a better grasp on my feelings, when I am not sure that I want to participate in some events or gatherings. After I went to a bunco night at my church, I felt like the gathering was heavily weighted with older (read: older than ME) women. I had hoped to maybe find some around my age, but those were few (and married). So I don't think I will return. And I guess I am changed (personality-wise) by losing someone I love, also, as you mentioned. I would describe myself as sociable, too - but just don't feel like many opportunities present themselves right now - and I would like to think that I would avail myself of them, if there were some! I am truly looking forward to a visit back to the state I grew up in (MN) and to seeing some family and friends. I think that is what I desperately need now. Family. So lonely here. I don’t know if I would describe my feelings as being scared – but maybe reluctant is a better grasp on my feelings, when I am not sure that I want to participate in some events or gatherings. After I went to a bunco night at my church, I felt like the gathering was heavily weighted with older (read: older than ME) women. I had hoped to maybe find some around my age, but those were few (and married). So I don’t think I will return.

And I guess I am changed (personality-wise) by losing someone I love, also, as you mentioned. I would describe myself as sociable, too – but just don’t feel like many opportunities present themselves right now – and I would like to think that I would avail myself of them, if there were some!

I am truly looking forward to a visit back to the state I grew up in (MN) and to seeing some family and friends. I think that is what I desperately need now. Family. So lonely here.

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