Feeling a stranger in your own body
May 29, 2007 by Anna Farmery
Filed under Grief
I wrote yesterday about my isolated feeling over the weekend. I have thought about it overnight and here are my reflections
- When you are grieving you shut down your emotions to protect yourself. Maybe what I am feeling is the “numbness” associated with my heart still not being ready to emotionally join the world as yet.
- It is OK! My body, my heart has been through shock and an immense amount of pain. I am not ‘weird’, I am completely normal!
- It takes time to rejoin the world. When I think how far I have come, I have come a
long way….there is still a long journey ahead but again that is fine. Time will heal, time will bring socialising skills back. - Maybe I will never be the same. After all, a huge emotional event has happened. My carefree days are maybe over, as I now have been shaped by bereavement, by pain. That does not mean I can’t be happy, it just means that once my brain computes all the emotions, my outlook may have slightly altered.
Do you have any thoughts that may help us all?
hi Anna..you are right it takes time to rejoin the world its been more than a year and i am still there standing alone…i still feel the pain and it kills me …i know i can never be same again innocent again…