Paying my bills was low on my list, eventually basically losing everything, even my self.

I just finished paying for Jill’s funeral that has taken me 5 years to do.

Now I get a call from the monument company, the Jill’s father, of whom all I asked was for him to pay for her headstone and he agreed. Being as he never paid child support or tried to have a positive role in her life.

But I get a call from the monument company because the girl knew our family and said they were going to have to repossess the headstone because the father had not made but one payment and will not answer their calls and letters.

I can’t tell you what it would have done to me if I had gone out there and Jill’s headstone had been missing. that would have put me over the edge.

I sold what jewelry I had left, my patio furniture, my collectible Hallmark ornaments to pay for it.

I am still so far behind that at times I want to just give up but I know I cannot. I was a legal investigator prior to Jill’s departure and do not have the nerves of steel anymore to be a good partner. Besides the dept doesnt employ peole who have been in mental hospitals even if they are previous employers!.

I work 2 jobs, spend nothing extra, only what is absolutely necesary, I keep my heat on 66 and my ac on 82. When I drive I make my trips count by planning my route as not to wast gas.

What little savings I had has long been used and I am not eligible for and ira until Im 62. I drive a 1997 car, take any extra jobs like house cleaning or anything I can find but with the monument development it’s made me crazay all over again.

I guess I’m hurt and angry at Jill’s father and Im venting here. But I would appreciate any ideas you or your readers might have.

Emotionaly Im haning on the my life raft, financially, the sharks are circling. Im sick to death and just in case anyone knows this sorry father, his name is Drue Edward Wright and he lives in Conroe Texas. I know thats a hateful thing to say but the truth is the thruth.

All ideas from anyone will be appreciated directly Im at jeb5775 at yahoo.

Im drowning here, and any hope would help.
Jackie b