I survived the night out!
December 18, 2006 by Anna Farmery
Filed under Comfort Yourself, Grief, Loneliness, Guilt & Depression
I posted on Saturday about having to go out and not wanting to, and thanks to Stephen who 
wished me luck on the comments, it was lovely to know that others know what you are going through and supporting you. Well, I did it. Did I feel comfortable, not totally….did I feel an emptiness, especially on the slushy songs…yes I did, but you know intermingled in the emptiness, sadness and loneliness…I laughed, danced and enjoyed the company of others.
Grief can be crippling, it can stop you living…but going out showed me that I have to keep working at life and there are many people who want you to come through the dark days of loss and bereavement. I held his photo when I got in, told him that I was proud of myself, told him that I missed him, told him not to worry. After a bad week last week, I was not going to let him down…I was going to find a way through this pain and find again the person he loved.
Yay! I’m glad you were able to enjoy yourself.