Immune to Death Week
April 17, 2009 by Anna Farmery
Filed under Grief
Over the last 14 days I have had 6 phone calls to say friends or extended family members have died. 6! It has got to the point that I daren’t pick the phone up…just in case….
Once thing I realised about human nature is that on the first phone call I was very shocked and on each phone call thereafter the shock lessoned. Now please don’t read that as though I don’t care about the later deaths…that is far from the truth, I feel numb, so numb…..but somehow my heart locked itself away from further shock and pain. Somehow death had become a common part of my week, it was no longer something that I wasn’t expecting….it was almost expected.
What I found strange is that we all expect to die, we all expect those around us to die….even though we don’t admit it to ourselves.It sure does make you think about making time in your diary – 4 of the people I lost I was visiting in the next week or so….now I wish I had made those plans earlier. SO here is my lesson for the week 
Pain comes when expectation becomes reality, pain lessons when the reality becomes expected!
Oh my Anna, I am so sorry you have had such sad news over and over the last two weeks, I am not sure I would have been strong enough to handle something like that. Just wanted you to know my thoughts were with you.
Hugs, Deb
Oh Deb – don’t you find the more bad news you get the stronger you become?? It will be in a couple of weeks that the loss of 6 people will take hold….I just keep saying to my mum and nana…be careful I can’t lose you as well!!
I think writing this blog helps as I don’t like to talk to people about how I am feeling….I keep it in, away from the world. Writing allows it to come out, and I can hide behind my screen knowing none of the people around me will know what I write….