In grief, I wonder….
August 26, 2009 by Anna Farmery
Filed under Grief
I wonder when the pain will subside
I wonder when I will feel that I am finally free
Free from the pain I wake with everyday
And stops me from smiling and from being truly me.
I wonder when I will look forward to life
To meeting with friends and enjoying the day
As life goes by, with me surviving not living
And me fighting the sense I have just lost my way
I wonder when I will be able to fall asleep
Peacefully, rather than feeling so low
I wonder when I will be able to say
I love you, I miss you but now I must go
And find a new life, without you lovingly by my side
And enjoying my life and the adventurous ride.
I wonder……
I come to this website everyday. This poem captures my feelings entirely, I thought as time went by it would ease the pain, instead its gettin hard to deal. Deal with the realization that this is not going away, this is it! I’ve lost you forever, you’re not on vacation, Im never going to get another phone call from you, Im never going to hear you tell me that everything will be ok again….Your website is truely helping me everyday. Everyday is gettn to be a struggle a spiral and Im afraid to hit the ground hard.
Jackie – I am so pleased that the site helps you, I know how difficult it is and I just write from my heart. My poems aren’t meant to challenge the great poets (!) just reflect my thoughts at that time. I know what a struggle it can be, but keep going……the opposite is even more unattractive!
Maybe you should join our next support session, I haven’t arranged it yet but it is a wonderful way of listening and talking with people who understand the pain.
More than anything it so helps me when people leave a comment like yours…I never quite know who is reading and just to hear that the words help…well, that helps me. Thank you