Losing your protection, your soul mate
November 22, 2006 by Anna Farmery
Filed under Comfort Yourself, Grief, Loneliness, Guilt & Depression, Releasing Fear
Death left me feeling as though I had been stripped to the bone, my emotions on show to everyone and naked to the world- my protector had gone.
Well, that may have been true but my best mate said to me “You were a great human being before you fell in love, you lived, you coped, you dealt with any problem thrown at you, you are scared because his protection was a comfort and you now need to re find yourself. But it is there, it always has been – you need to relearn not learn from new”
Maybe that is why she is my best friend…she walked alongside me until I could emotional walk on my own again. She was right, he had been a comfort but all those skills I thought I relied on him for, were still inside of me…waiting to come out when the time was right.
The traits that we most admire and most hate in others are also in us. Other people mirror those parts of us back to us. We do the same for others.
It’s not a month yet and it was a so sudden
and not expected and he was to young. I’m
lost and feeling like I just want to see him
talk to him feel his warm hugs and kisses.
Can’t sleep in our bed my life is upside down.
I will love him always and miss him forever.
Cindy – I know the feeling. One thing I did at the beginning was change bedrooms for a short while…when I felt like a hug I also used to wear one of his jumpers…not sure if these will help you? But I would encourage you to read through many of my postings as they track my progress which may help you….you will cope, I know because that is what he loved
Thank you for you supportive words. I’m in
counseling now. I’m still missing him so much.
I didn’t sleep in my bedroom for almost 2 months.
But my daughter wanted her privacy and bed
back so I had to return to the bedroom. I take
it a day at a time. I wear his wedding band and
it’s brought me the most comfort. He had that
on him all the time never took it off even when
playing his guitar or doing his wood working.