More on Watching Someone Die

I posted a while ago about Watching Someone Die and Gloria just posted a comment that touched my heart, the comment ended

“The one thing I walk away with is the knowledge that he was a great man, an unbelievable father and an undying love and trust for God. He will help me through this.”

It touched me because I still remember the last moments of my Dad’s life, I still   remember feeling guilty of waiting for him to go…he was in such pain and I didn’t want that for him, I wanted him to be at peace. I loved him so much not just for being my Dad, but also for his wonderful heart and ability to touch people’s lives. I have always felt that a huge part of my life must be carrying on his legacy, not because I have to but because I want to…. just like Gloria, I gain strength from from knowing that I am helping his views live on….his spirit is inside me.

I think that is one way that I coped with the grief, finding ways of ensuring his view of life lived on…indeed I said at his funeral

“…..If we are to honour his memory the way he would have wanted, let’s hope that all of us here can show the compassion he showed, make the time for our friends and family the way he did and hopefully that will be a fitting tribute to a man who brought so much love to the world”

Dad, if you can read blogs wherever you are….I hope Widows Quest shows that I try and live those values to keep your memory alive.