Self sabotage
May 31, 2007 by Anna Farmery
Filed under Loneliness, Guilt & Depression
I was recording the Middle Age Shed podcast which is my journey towards losing weight. This week my diet pal Heather Gorringe is on holiday so I invited a diet coach onto the show. I realised when I was talking to her that I can self sabotage myself. Here is the issue, I am 5lbs away from achieving my target whereas my friend still has 12 lbs to go…..subconsciously I don’t want to get there without her. Therefore, I have 
been self sabotaging my diet.
In fact, I don’t think that I deserve to get there before her….maybe that is at the heart of how grief has affected me. I don’t believe that I deserve to be happy. I thought I did, I often write about it on this blog but underneath I still have some work to do! I will publish the podcast on Saturday it is really worth a listen.
