As you know this week I have been struggling, struggling to face life ahead. The depression has been strange it has been more about a total lack of enjoyment of life……a lack of energy to face the reality. Yesterday, a friend had a free day so we went to the pictures to see the new Sex and The City movie, had lunch and then went to the gym. It was great, it stopped me from thinking about the darkness and allowed me to relax.
I can’t say that the depression is over – I am still thinking of going to the …read more

The last couple of weeks have been hard, very hard. My health has not been great and when that happens, depression seems to descend over me. It just shows how important our health is, in the grief recovery process.
The last couple of days I have forced myself to get out into the sunshine. I have walked for   about 5 miles each day. Although I live on the edge of a city, I am fortunate to live near a canal and also on the edge of some wonderful countryside.
During those walks I have put my iPod on, played my favourite …read more

It is my best friends birthday this week, tomorrow I am going to a party and although I want to be there, the stronger feeling is that I want to stay in and be by myself.
Grief can make you insular, grief can make you feel guilty about enjoying yourself. Yet it is that company of friends that will help you through the grief cycle. I have been talking to myself saying

This is about your friends, not me. They want me to go and they have been so supportive, this is a small way of giving back to our friendship.
Grieving does …read more