It has been a while since I jotted down my thoughts. Tonight grief is leaving me numb…not happy, not sad just numb..I wrote this down and maybe you will connect with this kind of grieving
When we face those days when we don’t know how
To face the world and carry on
We must remember that life is a gift to all
And remember to smile and stand up tall
A smile can wash away the fears
And a hug from a friend take away the tears
Grief is not easy but then life is hard too
It is not what we think it is what we all …read more

Gosh, in some ways I am not sure how we did it, however I am proud that we got through the holiday season together and showed our strength if not a few tears. Here are the weekly set of articles to help us find our happiness over the next year

Felix presents End of Year Magic? posted at Fulfilled Dreams.
Anna presents Don’t Be  a Turkey! posted at The Engaging Brand

Aparna presents Complaining habit and choosing the right company posted at Beauty and Personality Grooming

Ralph Jean-Paul presents Channel 3 Focus posted at ralphs words, saying, “Can the VCR help you understand …read more

Mum showed me a box that she found whilst clearing out her loft. The box contained all the notes that Dad had written her whilst they were “courting”. They were even more special because Dad was dyslexic and the writing was poor and very hard to understand.
There was even the receipts of gifts that he had sent mum. One was for an emerald ring that he had hidden inside a pickled onion jar, with a note attached saying…”Just like you, I have a heart of gold”
Dad wasn’t the most obviously romantic person, yet the letters showed the undying love he …read more

When

You don’t feel that you can breath anymore
Your heart aches so much that you are bent double with pain
You arrive at your first social event …alone
You shout that their dinner is ready…and there is no reply
You buy groceries for two…not remembering
You see the coffin….and it disappears through the tears
You are left alone for the first time
You climb into bed…..

No matter the words, I don’t know about you but at that point all I need is for someone to hold me tight…..and stroke my head
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Thank you so much for the comments about this feeling of fear that I have….it meant the world to me. I loved Linda’s comment
“Courage is not the absence of fear–but the belief that something is more important than the fear.”
I have always felt that I am a courageous person. I think that is why I am struggling at the moment. In effect, I am not used to feeling fear therefore I am lost. I want to talk to someone and thinking of going to see my doctor. If I am honest I think this fear is linked to the fear …read more

Over the months I have learned how important it is to talk to yourself…not in a mad way! But in a way that helps you cope with the feelings of grief and depression. When I am down I say

You ARE strong..look how you have coped since his death….
Just take each minute, each hour, each day at a time…
You will get through this moment, it is your heart just needing a little rest in its battle to cope…allow it a moment.
Tears are not a sign of weakness, tears are a sign of someone who has had the joy of loving
I cannot …read more

Last night I found some old letters that I had received whilst we were going out together. I had forgotten about their existence and when I read them…..oh, I tell you my heart felt ready to explode. It was great to read about how we felt, bringing back the memories of how much in love we were…but wow, the after shock was huge.
Tears fell like waterfalls, my body felt empty, weak with emotion. I sat holding the letters and this made me wonder whether it was healthy to keep them?
What do you think? Do you keep letters and other …read more

I am UK based but have been watching the US elections closely. When I saw Hillary Clinton close to tears and the press reporting that as a positive reason why she won in New Hampshire, it made me smile.
We often fight back the tears, we are often ashamed of our crying…yet the world sees tears as a sign if being a true human being…..tears are not wrong, tears do not show weakness, they show our strength to be a human being…..
Whether they worked for Hillary or not, they work when you are grieving as an emotional outlet for your pain. …read more