Loneliness can be so cruel. The sound of silence can be deafening. I think in grief, silence can be one of the loneliest times. In bereavement I think it is important to give yourself the chance to grieve, to cry, to weep but I also think we must guard against being alone in a silent house.
The silence can be a constant reminder of being on your own, it can be the reminder that you are now a widow or widower. Going out can often feel so alien and so frightening that it may not be an option to start with…I …read more

I came across this poem about love which I enjoyed and thought I would share with you all
If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine…
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
Courtney Kuchta
Love is such a magical feeling and one which we should always remember has been a great gift to have had in our lives. We may cry about losing …read more

..is that if we allow pain to change us for the worse than the loss has been in vain. Any change in your life will feel uncomfortable and none more so than grief. However, life is all about evolution – indeed in a way death is about evolution, death is required for life to continue on this wonderful planet.
We can’t stop death as much as we would all want to….I think that is one of the hardest things to come to terms with….but death is bad enough, without us allowing the loss to change us into a worse human being …read more

At the weekend I went over to Mum’s and part of every visit is to cut her grass. After Dad died, Mum started to get a little Robin visiting her house and she honestly believes that he represents Dad looking after her. This week has been difficult for me in several ways and when I was cutting the grass I had a few tears in my eyes from a feeling of loneliness.
Just as the tears welled, the robin appeared and for the rest of the time I was cutting the grass it stayed within a metre or two of me. …read more

Am I the only thinking today…..what if I wake up and the world says
“Got ya! It was just a joke, a sick joke…..he is here, right here”
I am awake, I am waiting….come on world tell me that all this pain was in vain and that you were merely playing a joke….come on I am waiting……
….ah well back didn’t think so

As you all know I am trying to stay positive and have been working hard on what i have in my life rather than what I have lost, however this month sleeping has been a real issue. Have you had those times when your brain just won’t switch off, when no matter what you do your mind starts thinking about problems or times that you miss?
I have tried having a bath before bedtime, cutting out the caffeine, getting into a routine yet nothing seems to be working – what do you do ? I am so tired at the moment …read more

Grief can make you think differently about love.
I know that I have at various stages thought that I never want to love again, I miss being with the person I love, I hate love, I want to love but don’t think that I ever will again.
I have come to the conclusion that there are 4 stages

Letting go of believing that your loved one will somehow come back into your life
Learning to love yourself again
Allowing yourself to feel again and accepting that love is a natural emotion and that it is OK to love again
Being open to love again and finding …read more

It is important that we keep giving ourselves something to look forward to, so maybe with it being the New Year we should be thinking of booking a holiday. Now finances may be tight so what about a camping trip, or stay with friends to cut down the cost?
Holidays are important to get you away from the constant reminders, I know often we don’t want to go but it is important to keep living. I am not sure what to do, I think I may take my mum away again this year that way together we can smile, laugh and …read more

Sometimes when I am walking around or even just sitting and I feel as though there is someone watching over me, someone who is guiding me through my life. In fact when I get confused it is when I don’t feel that angels presence, when I don’t feel that angel guiding me through the stages of my life.
I often wonder who the angel is, or whether there are a few angels watching over me. It’s funny because I don’t believe in angels and yet here I am writing about them….so what is it?Is it real or is it your subsconscious wanting someone …read more

I urge you to read the comment that Jackie left to Grief Brings Loneliness but I am Never Alone, it touched my heart and I will never see a rainbow in the same light.
I so wish that I had received a sign that he is OK. The only emotion that I ever had was returning to the house on the night he died. I was driving and when I pulled into the house, I started to shiver. I felt a fear that was overpowering. It was like a bad ghost was inside the house, I couldn’t go in. I stood …read more