Watching your loved one die response

I received an email about yesterday which is very moving, and I want to thank Sheila for sending it to me.

“Anna,

I am watching my husband die at the moment. I am sat by his bed, holding his hand, telling him how much I love him – but he cannot hear me. It is ripping me apart as I just want him to go now. I feel so guilty about that, feel I must be some kind of monster. Reading your post helped to know others feel the same, after all how can you want the love of life to die? How can you want them to leave your life and yet I do. He is fading fast and I know I have not much longer with him, but thank you for expressing the thoughts that I was feeling.”

Wow, just reading this brought all the emotion flooding back. One thing that may help, is that when I looked at him I knew he had died already, it was just the body that had to close down. His spirit had gone and it was not him lying there, that is why it was a relief when the body slowly shut down. You see I was watching a shell, not the man I loved, he was still alive in my memories and heart.

All my thoughts are with you Sheila and the Widows Quest will be here to support you through this trauma.