Who I am…..
May 7, 2009 by Anna Farmery
Filed under Affirmations of Life
I maybe grieving, I may have lost my way
But I am still me, I am still the woman I was
I maybe lost and fearing I can never find that me again
But I am still me and I am on my way to being me again
I maybe struggling at times to cope
But I am, and I am so proud that I am
I maybe feel at times that I will not be strong enough
But I know that I am. Resilient and strong is what I am
So no matter what peaks and now matter what troughs
This person will fight, how do I know?
Because that is who I am
My little widows mantra for those days when I don’t know who I am!
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Anna, I love your poem. You seem to read my mind. I am fighting to stay strong. It is getting close to the first anniversary of Rick’s death, June 2nd. I keep reliving the last weeks of his life right now. I wish June 2nd would hurry up and come and go. I’m hoping this milestone will help me to look to the future. The difference between this year and last is that I now know that things will work out because I have been able to do so many things on my own that I never thought I could do.
I am experiencing the peaks and valleys right now and like you I will fight to stay strong because really, what choice do we have? Ultimately we must do this for ourselves before we can reach out and find happiness.
In November you wrote a piece about finding strength through grief and I printed it out and have it on my fridge. I have read it many times for inspiration. I think I will print this piece you wrote today and it will be my mantra too, if you don’t mind. Thanks, again for the inspiration.
Oh Leslie….you and I will one day find out that we are related somewhere along the way with all these similar feelings
I am so glad that you find strength in the words, I cannot always find the right words but I know that the people reading the articles will probably know what I am meaning….like this one if you haven’t had loss I don’t think you have to find “who am I”…and dig deep into that inner strength…
Those valleys are so normal, just you remember how much we all believe in you, you are one of the most resilient people I know (even tho I don’t really!!)
We will be here for you
xx
When I lost my husband, I felt a strong “never again to be defeated” woman rise from inside of me. She is still standing and forever will.
Thank you Anna for putting it in words so eloquently!!